Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Struggling

I'm going to give it to you straight.  I'm struggling!  I think I've entered the joys of what is known as a "fibro flare-up".  It started toward the end of last week and is hanging on for dear life.  I am so extremely tired I'm afraid to drive anywhere because I'm afraid I will fall asleep at the wheel.  When I wake up in the morning I feel like I haven't slept at all and that my body somehow went from being 33 to 95 overnight.  My hands are so stiff and swollen when I wake up I can't use them for an hour or more.  I have to fix the girls' hair before they go to bed at night because I just can't make my hands do it in the morning.  All of my joints ache and my head hasn't stopped pounding for days.  In short, I feel terrible.

Last night I decided I was going to quit my blog.  I used to love it, but the last couple of weeks have been hard.  I am so behind on housework and helping the kiddos with homework and piano lessons it is ridiculous.  I haven't cooked a real dinner in almost a week.  I feel like my life is unraveling and there is not a thing I can do about it.

I'm sad becuase I have gotten to know so many amazing people and my linky parties are starting to take off and my followers are starting to climb pretty quickly.  But I just can't do it...not right now.  I don't know if I'm going to quit it for keeps or just for a little bit, but I have to give myself permission to stop for now.  I'll see how I feel when my "flare-up" decides to "flare-down" and I get my real life under control again.  I will still post things if I think they are awesome, but I'm not going to push myself to do it everyday.

Thanks for understanding.

26 comments:

Mandy said...

thinking of you Sarah!

Mindy said...

I'm so sorry to hear it! Wow--you've been so upbeat. Thanks for sharing your good attitude with all of us, even in the midst of struggling.

melody-mae said...

so sorry honey. I just found your blog last week but, I do want you to know I am thinking of you and hope you can feel better soon.take care of yourself sweetheart.

blessings,
melody-

Steoger Fam said...

You're in my prayers! I hope you start feeling better soon!
Cortnie

Lian said...

It's okay to disconnect from the e-world for a while. We'll still be around when you get back. Take care and hope you start to feel better.

Tara @ Tara Being Tara said...

You're in my prayers, Sarah! Hope that your step down isn't permanent - but it sounds like you need some time for YOU and your family right now. Sending you lots of virtual x's and o's!

kathie said...

You absolutely deserve "permission" to take a break! Everyone needs a time-out once in a while, especially for health reasons. I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad, I will be praying for you!

Judy said...

I'm so sorry! I hope the break is just what you need! Feel better soon

I'll look forward to the awesome posts you will be sharing when you can!

Tammy@ Not Just Paper and Glue said...

Please take care of yourself. We understand and will miss you while you are gone ;)

ourlifeinaclick.blogspot.com said...

Take it easy Sarah and do what's best for you and your family. I love your blog but I totally understand and wish you all the best!

-heather

Tiana said...

Oh love I am so sorry. Know that you are in our prayers...wish I was there to make you some soup, send you to bed, and play with your kiddos.

Life in Rehab said...

Sarah, listen, don't do anything rash and quit. Just take some time off. You're in pain, and I hate to see that happen to such a young woman. Take care of yourself and what's real in your life. We'll all be right here waiting when you feel up to it again. And if there's anything at all that I can do to help, please let me know.

Diane said...

Sarah take all the time you need and don't worry about your link party. We will be here when you are able to resume it and feel like enjoying it again.

Sending you a big Louisiana hug and praying that your health will get better real soon. Take care of yourself sweetie Ÿ

craftystaci.com said...

You need to take care of yourself first. We'll all wait until you're ready to come back. I hope you feel better soon!

Handy Man, Crafty Woman said...

I hope you feel better soon. I only have minor health issues, and I know how hard it is with my small issues, and trying to keep up with my blog, family and home. come back when you can! I'll still be here! :-)

mle said...

So sorry to hear of your challenges & pain! Sending thoughts & prayers.
Take care!!

Lori@Paisley Passions said...

Wishing you the best. You need to take care of YOU and your family. Good luck. Hope you feel better soon.

AliLilly said...

Take care of yourself and your family. We all will love you no matter what you do. I'm here for you if you need anything. Someone to chat with.....

Norenia said...

Sarah I am new to your blog. I just read about your flare ups.
I to have fibro, and the best thing I can do for my flare ups is to go to the chiropractor. He has helped me more than any doctor or any medication. Before going to him I was disabled with flareups, took many, many meds, and was going to many doctors.... It took awhile.Now I go to him for everything... If I think I might be on the verge of a flareup....or for a headache.... Try to get a chiropractor that does the "gonsted method" .....
Good luck and thinking about you....Norenia

Aimee said...

So sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well. I do understand. I just recently found your blog within the last few months and would miss it, but you have to do what's right for you and your family. God Bless!

Erin said...

Sarah - I'm so sorry to hear your struggles. Take care of yourself and you kiddos. We'll still be here if you decide to come back and if you don't, thanks for all the amazing inspiration! You are so creative - I love it!!! Hang in there!

Life in Rehab said...

Hi Sarah,

I just popped in to let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you're feeling better and things are easing up. Enjoy the holidays, and if there's anything I can do, you have my email.

Real Housewife in MN said...

Sometimes you definitley need to take time for yourself. I hope you start to feel better! The internet will always be here :-)

Faith Hope Cherrytea ~ said...

as an instructor of the 'Get Better Together' Program - self management of chronic illness from Stanford U- i'd encourage you to find a class locally.. i'd also recommend being tested for rheumatoid arthritis - your story sounds like mine!
and if you don't care for yourself there is no one more interested than God who gifted you with yourself to care for-
my prayers, Sarah, join yours..

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Life in Rehab said...

Hi Sarah,

I just wanted to check in on you. I hope things are getting easier for you so that you can enjoy the holidays. I wish there was something I could do to help you.